I’m a Masterpiece
When I am having a rough day there is nothing better than turning on some good music, pouring a nice glass of wine, blasting your music and just dancing. Jazmine Sullivan is one of my favorite singers. Her range, her sultry voice, her tone, the list goes on for me. On this particular day when I was feeling down I decided to blast, Mona Lisa. I welcomed this dance party with open arms.
The dance party was just that at first, dancing away until I really listened to the words of the song. I put the song on repeat, yes repeat so I could soak in every single word of the song.
My eyes aint used to these rays
I'm feeling exposed, but I can't hide no more, I can't hide.
As the sun shines on all of my glory
My flaws don't look so bad at all
What was I so afraid of?
While dancing the questions begin to flood my mind. I am feeling exposed, what I have been so afraid of? I was afraid of seeing me, embracing me. Seeing me the way God saw me, not through these lenses of judgement and hatred but with love. My flaws that I believed to be the worst part of me was the thing that makes me. I had to ask me, Jee what are you afraid of? What is the thing that makes you shake in your boots? What is it? Why are you afraid of shining in your own right? What is making you afraid to walk in the direction of your dreams, not everyone else’s dream for you?
Who is this I've tried so long to fight?
Filling my head with lies that I'm not good enough
Then I heard something in my ear
Tell me that I'm perfect, now that I know the truth
Time to show and prove.
At this point I am in tears dancing in my room, dancing, smiling and singing loud! There is freedom in every move, every tear shed, my heart is opening and living. The journey of being ME is the thing I have lived all of my life battling. Instead of embracing this path I am on. I have filled it with the negative thoughts, failures, disappointments of me not being good enough. Believing somehow I was doing it wrong, not doing enough, compared to the path of others. Doubting my own dopeness, believing the lies I repeated to myself. I filled my own head up with the past failures, disappointments that I wasn't good enough to do great things. As I was dancing, I told myself, “Jee, you are perfect just the way you are!” Whew, what a weight lifted and revelation made.
And now I see the pretty colors on my canvas
I'm a work of art, a Mona Lisa
I’ll share my picture with the world
Not afraid to let it show anymore.
I finally realize I am the canvas full of gorgeous colors that my life brings. Taking a glance back when I didn’t feel pretty, good enough, worthy of love or good things to happen to me. As I danced again I asked myself what are you ashamed of? And why? It was in this moment I danced into freedom. I am a work of art, a Mona Lisa.
Friend, there may be moments when you don’t feel your best. There will be times you want to waddle instead of winning. Don’t sit in your pit and party, girl. You are a masterpiece, you are enough, you have a gift to share with the world. So grab you wine or water whatever you like, pick a song that will make you dance. Dance until you are free, Dance until you know you are a MASTERPIECE!
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