You Are A Masterpiece!
There is nothing like a solo dance party with your favorite glass of wine, music blasting with a song that speaks right to your situation. This was me a few years ago when I felt I was at me at one of the toughest moments in my life. Jazmine Sullivan’s song Masterpiece was on repeat it was her voice singing this song in particular that I connected with in such a way it literally changed my life, my perspective.
Initially I needed some music to listen to, music is often my calm. It went from listening to the music to a full out dance party once I begin listening to the words being sung. Which then lead to me keep the song on repeat so I could soak in every single word.
My eyes aint used to these rays
I'm feeling exposed, but I can't hide no more, I can't hide.
As the sun shines on all of my glory
My flaws don't look so bad at all
What was I so afraid of?
I had to ask myself, “Jee, what are you so afraid of?” It was time for me to be completely honest with myself in that moment. I was afraid of seeing me, embracing me. Seeing me the way God saw me, not through these lenses of judgement and hatred but with love. Real love is kind, it doesn’t keep a running list of the bad you have done. My self-love through life didn’t mirror that at all. I was hard on me, never giving grace to me for the choices I had to make. Instead of me embracing my flaws I begin to believe those flaws were the worse part of me.
Again I asked me, Jee what are you afraid of? What is the thing that makes you shake in your boots? What is it? Why are you afraid of shining in your own right? What is making you afraid to walk in the direction of your dreams, not everyone else’s dream for you?
Who is this I've tried so long to fight?
Filling my head with lies that I'm not good enough
Then I heard something in my ear
Tell me that I'm perfect, now that I know the truth
Time to show and prove.
I went from laughing, smiling, dancing so freely to even tears falling. The more I danced the more free I felt the weight lifting off of me to acknowledge my uncertainty, the lack of self love I had for me to moving to a space of being free to love me flaws and all. Jazmin’s words led to me a place in that moment to literally be free allowing God’s love to whisper in my ear, “You are enough, You are loved be me!” Oh honey I was done for.
There is freedom in every move, every tear shed, my heart is opening and living. The journey of being ME is the thing I have lived all of my life battling. Instead of embracing this path I am on. I have filled it with the negative thoughts, failures, disappointments of me not being good enough. Believing somehow I was doing it wrong, not doing enough, compared to the path of others. Doubting my own dopeness, believing the lies I repeated to myself. I filled my own head up with the past failures, disappointments that I wasn't good enough to do great things. As I was dancing, I told myself, “Jee, you are perfect just the way you are!” Whew, what a weight lifted and revelation made.
And now I see the pretty colors on my canvas
I'm a work of art, a Mona Lisa
I’ll share my picture with the world
Not afraid to let it show anymore.
I finally realize I am the canvas full of gorgeous colors that my life brings. Taking a glance back when I didn’t feel pretty, good enough, worthy of love or good things to happen to me. As I danced again I asked myself what are you ashamed of? And why? It was in this moment I danced into freedom. God created me so I know with my whole heart that I was created so beautifully without any mistakes.
Friend, there may be moments when you don’t feel your best. There will be times you want to waddle instead of winning. Don’t sit in your pit and party, girl. You are a masterpiece, you are enough, you have a gift to share with the world. So grab you wine or water whatever you like, pick a song that will make you dance. Dance until you are free, Dance until you know you are a MASTERPIECE!
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